Dealing with fear of failure

I find this process very interesting. I am aiming at making a series of paintings of the same size and the same part of various faces, and in this process I am finding that I am approaching each piece with less fear of failure and with an open attitude to what the result will be. I am curious to see what the paintings will look like later. Now I am working on the seventh painting. The original plan was to make twelve, but I think I will do a lot more and just push on, forcing myself to move beyond my imaginary boundaries. Am I doing the right thing to allow you to see this? Should I shut my studio to the outside world and not let anyone see the struggle, possible failure? But what is my purpose then? Maybe by allowing you to observe and partake of my working process, I can inspire you to take some steps outside your comfort zone as well. Do I care if the so called Art World likes my work or not? Yes, of course I would be happy if they do, but maybe that is not the most important thing. One of my greatest “mentors” is Alexander Calder, who just wanted his artwork to make people laugh and be happy.

Some results of today´s work in the studio:

“Canvas” number six.

“Canvas” number seven, to be continued.